Pre-Birth Memory No.27
The case of L.S.
L.S., a 39-year-old woman from Australia, recently wrote me the following during our e-mail exchange early in 2004:
“Before I was born I remember having a panoramic view, in which I was shown my life. Almost immediately after being shown what was a very vivid experience began to fade with the 'actual' events purposefully 'clouded'. I was left with the general gist of what my life mission would be. I was shown the sad times, and remembered some of the more depressing moments. I was asked if I was sure I wanted to go through with it. I remember thinking hard about it. I said 'yes'. I was then asked again if I was sure. I again said 'yes, I was sure'.”
“I think I saw everything, as it was to happen before it clouded. Some of the situations seemed to have ‘branches’ or ‘forks’ though. Like as though if I were to pick a certain ‘route’ my life would be different, with convergent places along the way, in which there were no deviations possible.”
“As for ‘beings’, yes there were. But my attention was on God, and they seemed to be doing something else, and were not focusing on me. Plus, I wasn’t really ‘thinking’ just watching. I had a decision to make, but I was not thinking in words, just ideas. It was a very rudimentary kind of perception.”
“As for a specific purpose, before you asked I have always just kind of ‘known’ but never really named it. As close as an approximation I can think of in English, because this is a feeling that encompasses more than I can readily find words to explain, if indeed there are words to explain it, is for me to stick up for God. I am supposed to defend his character, because I know Him. And because He is worthy. Actually, I really don’t know how to really explain it. But when I fail, like when He has told me something, and I have failed to say something He told me to say, I feel very sorrowful that I have disappointed Him. And I try to never let it happen again every time.”
“If I make it through successfully now, and do what I am supposed to, I feel that at some point in my life I will have a significant impact in someway. Maybe not headline kind of impact, but something important. It might even be to play a part in some other person’s life that will in turn be the one who actually follows through. Either way, I am not worried, as long as I know I am doing what I am supposed to be doing ’today’. ”